A Damaged Lover

Sometime people have to come to the realization that by loving someone you weaken them. Even if your love seems justified, if you don't give it 100% and your all then you are just crippling them. To love someone fully and not be loved back seems like the ultimate torture. I have been a victim to it and I have been the perpetrator as well. I am still unsure about the love I had for a former person. I gave her everything possible but I don't know if I did it for love or the idea of love. Make sense? I guess I am a romantic and people saw what I was doing as desperate and foolish when really I was just trying to be what that person wanted. I learned a huge lesson from that relationship. I learned that you can't make someone love you and if they don't then you need to let go. I held on for way to long and almost let something good pass me by. There was another relationship where I was the bad one, I was the one who never gave myself fully. I feel bad for that and if I could take my actions back from the start I would. You should never start something you have no intention of finishing. I took someone's heart without even fully revealing mine. I've been in her shoes and I know how much it hurts to hold on to any chance of hope but yet I continue not to care. I mean I do care to a certain point I wonder and say what if but I have no remorse. Apparently I can crush someone and not even think twice. When I describe that I guess I seem like a monster but I am honest when it comes to all intentions. I can honestly say that I have loved in three different ways. I have had first love, unbreakable live, and I've had head-over-heels passionate love. All are different, all are tragic, and all are beautiful in some way.