a middle class lame

Last night was great and this morning was the exact opposite. These days when I get around my family it feels like the air is toxic. This morning I was in the car with family members and you can tell we all have something on our mind but none of us has the guts to say it. This is a long lasting tradition in my family. One day you argue and cut each others throat and the next day you smile and ask for what you need. I am sick of being the giving one. I put everyone's happiness above my own but then when I get nothing in return I take it out on the only person who actually is there for me. I guess it is just weird for me because when my father was alive he held us together and we held our head high. Now it feels like we cannot stand each other and hate the way we are living. Oh well I only have a little bit longer until I am graduated from a great university and all this will be in the rear-view mirror.